Monday, September 22, 2008
-Wonder whether I had neglected some of my friends?
As you know, I am a straight-forward kind of person. I, of course, speak directly, sometimes even without thinking. That may be stupid-I think. But sometimes I really feel that maybe I had neglected some of my friends. Physical, maybe not. But what I mean is mentally. Sometimes I just speak my mind. I know it can be hurtful but I don't know why, it just come out naturally. I seriously don't know how to elaborate myself. Like at times, I just call you an idoit! I know, that it sounded bad. But I am just like that! I can't stop myself! I really feel like stopping this! But it is only after I said then I went oops! Maybe I shouldn't be this far too talkative. Maybe one day I'll try-shut up! At time, I really hated myself that I just want to be alone. But surrounding circumstances doesn't allow me to. I hate this kind of feeling. Alternatively, being alone AT TIMES isn't so bad after all. It's a time for reflecting I guess... And I think I really need that kind of time...
-Wonder whether liking him is a mistake?
There are times when I think I need a change. A change for everything. I don't know. As people are visual, things change for a different taste. I used to like this guy, but another one comes in. And so the ex-guy doesn't seems important anymore. Sometimes I really really wanted to S-T-O-P myself from loving him, liking him maybe...??? I don't know. That day, I went home feeling emotional, because of him. After liking him, he seems to play an important role in my recent life. I just can't stop thinking about him! At times, I feel like flinging him away! Far Far Away! How I hope I had never fall for him! Ahhh...!!! But maybe liking someone isn't so bad after all? I don't know. Maybe I will get used to it soon. But I am just afraid that me and my friends will drift apart, not because of him please! But loving him is so tiring cause he likes another girl. But I feel havenly being with him! =D. Thanks God for letting me know him! It's my pleasure!
A New Chapter Unfold..
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